Hard nights

You said you didn't want me to cry. I am Holding it all in. You know that I love you just don't want to feel the pain. So I am not crying and pushing everything I feel to the side. It hurts so much to be away from you. please don't stop loving me even from afar. Please love me more because your not home. I dream about our wedding dance anytime I hear that song. I think of you spinning me around, how perfect it was. Of the way you look down smiling at me. It is what helps me make it through.