Hard at work

Two months down!! Phew. Hopefully time will move a bit faster now. It has been a slooooow two months. Unfortunately retail therapy has kicked in. That's a no go in this book; I love to shop a bit too much. The amazon app is not a great thing for me to have.

The weather is warming up quite a bit. So we have been working outside! My father an my in laws came down to help with setting up a gazebo. -thanks to amazon- so out outdoor area is shaping up quite a bit. By the end I the summer it may be done.

Too bad we had fought a nasty stomach bug and some bad Chinese food as well this week. No sooner had our guests left then I was sick. Thankfully the kids were fine! And I am completely grateful to the wonderful people in my life who were able to help me.

With the recovery of a bug early in the week things have been easy. We got our 'Daddy Board' up and he kids love it. The first 'spouse event' is this weekend, I am looking forward to that.

All of this is keeping my mind off him being gone. At least during the day, at night it's a different story. After the kids are in bed the depression hits. I can slay my body with crazy workouts and fall into exhaustion, I can read till I pass out. Nothing works at all to ease the pain. Maybe it is because the summer holidays (Mother's Day and Father's Day both wee man and my birthday) are coming along with our anniversary. He always did the best things to make the day extra special. I always looked forward to it. Now I dread it.

The bright side is that even if he is not here he still loves all of us. I can't stop my life because he is gone. I love him, more than words, but I can't make time fast forward or stop. If I could I would so we wouldn't have to have the pain. But it will all be worth it at the end of this journey. 'Adapt and overcome' right? That's what I am trying to do.

One day one wave at a time.
Until next week!